Where are you?
And I’m so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot breathe tonight
This unforgiving distance is here with me all the while
The sound of my sinking heart stays up with me all night
I count the kisses that you don’t give
The promises that you don’t make
The things you don’t say
I thought I was bigger than this
Maybe even a powerful, almost-God.
But I’m really a petty mortal of the worst kind.
You talk mundane things that twist my soul
I shiver and shudder, for I do not know
what force you wield, what magic you hide
What wretched sorcery you unleash
Every time you slave this splendid heart
Then my love becomes about self preservation
I try to build shields of my own
But they are not impervious like yours
For your smile is the onslaught of Gods
It erases and erodes everything in its wake
Every little thing you say
and then forget.
Is a hammer that starts of slow
but gradually destroys the very heart
Of anything it touches.
My biggest fear
is that your love is, but
and your eyes,
For I have loved you too much
I have dived too deep.